ringringring.....

I think the greatest of gifts a man can be blessed with is his mind;
His ability to use it well & to his advantage for good or bad is what has made great heroes & villains as history tells us...
what am I then? which category do i fall in:
hero, villain or spectator?

I have yet to find out...
Everyone has a story to tell, mine is only beginning to unfold.
Here's to what is yet to be!

The long wingdingyding road

Everyone has those days...

I've been swimming in this miserable rut for the past few days & I feel no better when it 1st started. All this negative energy is drowning me out of my senses. I guess it's being stuck in the house with the same people day in day out. It's driving me nuts! I miss my crappy room back home where I had my own privacy & no one would bother me & I could do what I wanted & my business was non but my own. I'm not blaming anyone or anything but I just so hate what I've become. I'm nowhere near what I was before I got here. Dammit!!! *sigh...
I'm pathetic aren't I? Well, it's true. I can't deny what I'm feeling. Gotta let it out somehow.

Anyways, congrats to all u Bday celebrants, & good luck 2 u guys getting your PSLE scores today...

I seriously need a drink... 2 bad Red Horse or Tanduay isn't available here...

today...

I hate, loathe, completely despise my life, this situtation i'm in right now. I can't stand it anymore. hehe, who doesn't? I don't know, it's just that i feel like everything's on boiling point & i just wanna leave this rut & shout my brains out...

I need a drink... Or some shrooms... *sigh

sigh... I'm so thirsty right now. I miss the sweet taste of Tanduay in my mouth... & the heavy hangovers the morning after! hehe...
Man, that bitch can kick!!

Intrams are on at SU & I wish all my friends who are taking part all the best & I'm jealous at the same time 'cos I can't be there & take part but hey, can't complain...
My life as I know it is a drag; I don't know, all this time I've been telling myself it'll all be better soon & honestly, I wish soon was now.

oh looky looky, i'm acting so emo... Crap. I swear, I can write a hit emo song in a minute 'cos those things take no effort. All you have to do is put the words 'why', you, me, love,alone, sick, sad, crying, life... Yeah, put all that shit together & you have yourself a chart topper! hehe...

In the words of one my favorite fictional characters, brought to life & played to perfection by Johnny Depp, Captain Jack Sparrow, after a rum induced evening & getting shitfaced with the heroine he wakes up & sees smoke a mile high in the sky & all the rum on the island he & the girl are marooned on, up in flames he cries,
"...why's all the rum gone?!?!"

Test

dammit... I didn't pass my Phyical Fitness test... All because of the stupid standing broad jump crap!!! Gotta practice more & brush up on technique. It was fun though;
I haven't gotten up so early for anything else since I can't remember!

Next week's another chance to prove myself. Wish me luck... I gotta take a dump, I've been havin' a bad case of flatulence for 2 days now. Good food... hehe...

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What is one to write & talk about than past experiences & lessons learnt & mistakes he/she has made, embarrassing moments, times of grief... Self glorifying? Self righteous? nah, of I was, then I'd be a bigger hypocrite than most of them out there.

What am I saying? Nothing much actually, but I think I'm on to something, I don't know what it is yet. Kinda how life is huh? There's this inevitable something waiting for me at the other side; good or bad, who's to know?

Live life, always see the brighter side of everything even when things don't seem to be goin' in your favor...

yadfayayayadydydyd

I'm totally obsessed with The Cure as well as The Godfather movies...
Don't ask why, I just am.

There's lots happening these days, 2nd sem in SU which, sadly I'm not a part of, *sob, as well as Arafat dying, Bush getting re-elected, the end of Ramadan & the begininning of Hari Raya Puasa... I can go on & on... So what do I do? Well, I blast the speakers on full & listen to "Friday I'm In Love" then pop in any Godfather DVD & engross myself in the emotional roller coaster that is the life of Michael Corleone. After that, back to reality...

clarito...

This is a pic of one of my best friends in SU... Can't see his face though, but he's sharing some love ryt there... anybody for some herbal remedy?

upd8

Guns 'N Roses' -Sweet Child O' Mine, blasting in the background, the TV's on, some art show, & I'm doing this... Talk about multi-tasking! Somebody should pay me 4 my efforts! Nothin' much 2 report except that I need to catch up on my reading & uh, also start to do my exercises again. I'm a lazy slob.. I just wish I was a fat lazy slob so I could start losing weight instead of gaining, but hey, at least I get to eat what I want! Ciao!

brooding

at times, often most than not; I feel I wanna escape & leave everything behind me & just be with myself 4 a few moments & have space & some distance from all the inevitable static; a constant thorn, digging, peircingly deeper into my side...
no journey is ever easy but along the way you kinda wish there was an easier road to take. Alas it can never be... Trod on we must.

NJDunjUDn

it's hard to explain or comprehend, but one things for sure, is that no one can deny their craving for attention; to be recognized; to be noticed, just for the sake of it, like what I'm doing right now... if you have the time, see how many times "I" is repaeted. Otherwise this is just an outlet to say what I want & spew out whatever I can't say by mouth. I think I'm more expressive this way, whether what I say makes sense or not...

As I write this, the world is ever changing by the second. Palestinian leader Yasser Arafat just died & apparently Bush has another chance to take over the rest of the "Arab" world after having won another term. I see more troubled times, but hey, all we've got to do is hope for the best & do our part in making the world a better place. Peace & Love... That's all there is to it, understanding & knowledge, patience, yeah you're probably saying cut the bullshit Jon, but hey, if it doesn't start with me or you, how else can you help?

Trip......

I swear, this midnite madness has to stop. Again I'm bored out of my wits & I don't know why. I can't explain it. It's just this weird, funny, inexplicable phenomenon that occurs ever so randomly & it's decided to take a shot at F*%king up my already insomnia plagued upside-down-topsy-turvy-sorry-excuse of a life!!!

The world's so full of endless possibilities & I'm rotting, holed up in the house in front of the computer, my ass a permanent fixture on the computer chair, searching for answers I'll never find & asking questions that'll never be answered while my body starts to decompose, , my brain cells turning to mush every mili-second i stare blankly into the screen expecting somethng good to happen... ARGHHH!!!!!! Pass the negativity around, why don't I? hehe... just tripping... I swear this midnite madness has to stop. Again I'm bored out of my wits & I don't know why. I can't explain it. It's just this weird, funny, inexplicable phenomenon that occurs ever so randomly & it's decided to take a shot at F*%king up....................