ontheuppityslowly

So, I'm sorting out all the nitty-gritty-not-pretty
details that discolor even further what little is left
of my seemingly, on the surface at least,
not so bright disposition.

mmm, good news is I'm the new PRO (public relations officer)
for the SU Alumni here, so it's an honour to be able to help out in some capacity
considering I never actually graduated, and to be recognised, officially,
that I can contribute in some way, is a good feeling...

I'm still on the hunt for anything at all that'll bring some dough to the table
so I can start clearing all these unnecessary debts I've incurred over the last few months.

My year is officially beginning to unfold.
Can't get myself undone too soon.

photos of Embrace Them Ghosts are up on their page:
http://www.facebook.com/EmbraceThemGhosts

embracingtheghosts

Had a decent start to the weekend, with me taking up photographing
duties for ETG... hoping the pictures come out alright...
Killer set for their first show of the year,
and they're as tight as ever, though the speakers
for the vocals kinda sucked, they still brought the house
down, and transformed a cramped lecture room
into a sweaty, greasy mix of moshtradamus proportions.
They were on overdrive this time,
belting out song after song, and they even played a clean instrumental filler
to usher in breathe i think it was...
I was too busy taking it all in, and trying to focus
on taking pictures of them in action so it was a multi sensory task
that I enjoyed immensely.
I'll post some of the pics up here and some other random ones of me and everything else
when I get to doing that.


Can't wait for this to come out:

gimme my z's back.

it's 5:45 in the AM and somebody's fucking car alarm has been ringing
the whole entirety of the night and that doesn't help the fact that
church is in another 3 hours or so and I haven't slept.
It's not the ringing that bugs me, rather the way it's ringing that's the problem.
Did I say ringing? I meant wailing, it wails like a fuckin' baby pachyderm does
when it finds itself unfortunately beached on the shores of some public beach or something like that.
Is a whale a pachyderm by the way? Ah who cares..
Note that I'm not being mean to any animals or would wish anything bad on anyone, literally, but I'm extremely annoyed.
So, all you animal lovers and activists can put a sock in it, lighten up, you'd be pissed too if you could hear what I'm hearing right now.

The battery is probably shot to shit so it's making a whiny almost Lo Batt kinda sound,
you know, like a broken tape recorder does when the tape gets caught inside and the sound just sounds all fucky?
Or like a sick cow or wild yelping animal that's screaming and begging to be put out of it's misery.

Dear Lord, bless the owner of this car, 'cos he's gonna need it.
He probably won't be able to start it later, and I will be amongst the lynch mob of many sleep deprived
zombies screaming for his head on a styrofoam platter.

godgiven

sooooo...
looking for a new job, occupation, time filler, bring the bacon,
win the bread.
it is not fun. and my attention span and concentrative (that's not even a word) powers
are that of an 8 year old.

Trying hard to distract myself constructively, but I'm doing a miserable job at it.
things have been hard, especially leading into the new year with certain issues
that need resolving.

Time ticks no matter the ups or downs, it doesn't wait at all, the bastard.

rant.

I'm still reeling from all commotion that new years has brought
and the machine that is this God damned earth, planet  thing cranks out
its well oiled gears and what-nots, as we all go back to work and school and carry on with
renewed hope and a wide eyed enthusiasm for the days ahead,
I on the other hand am not feeling it.
Not one similar sentiment, whatsoever.
It's not angst or bitterness;
Just an empty hollow occupying what was left
of my chest cavity.
Numb's the word.
Spell it.

And I bid all you merrymakers, all you people going back to work and school and play,
 a good week and a great year ahead of you,
God knows I do.