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I read your latest post Mara.
And I totally agree with the
'we all just wanna be loved' part.
In the end, nobody wants to be alone.

Here's the thing though,
and I think I've had a few online chats
with my dear friend over the years,
for her to agree with me that this charade
of falling in and out of love is a fucking drag.

Call me overly sentimental,
a hopeless sap, but...

ok, it's 06:58am on a Saturday and
I should have published this already.

I think the point I'm trying
to make is that
I can't escape the fact I'm getting
older,
and I don't know
the next time
I'll be able to
gaze aimlessly up
at a neon-lit, Singapore sky
while in each other's arms,
savoring the moment,
digesting the dinner
and customary beer;
making the best of a fleeting moment
bleeding it for all its worth;

It's been awhile and
I honestly wanna say it doesn't bother me one bit,
but it does.

Complications and complexities
accompany this modern day
relationship-type-thing,
and I've become so desentisized
and jaded to the notion
of leaving an open space for
the 'right one'.
It's 03:06am on a sunday morning now
and this post was started 2nights ago.

I'll follow up in the next post.
the average person has a very small attention span.
If you've read this far down my post,
well, thanks, and I hope I didn't waste to much of your time.
Or you're just as bored as I am.