uppitty

reading tc boyle's tooth and claw.

Going on another trip to Bintan tomorrow.

21 grunts

A major sign I fucked up big time
last year hit me smack in the face last night.
I missed Green Day in concert!!!

Sure it might not sound like a big thing,
but to realize that a band who
I've been a major fan of, for, I don't know,
a mere 14 years or so, were in town and
that I hadn't done a thing to ensure
I got a once in a lifetime chance to see
them in the flesh, I don't think
I can forgive myself.
You see, if I can't even plan
for an awesome evening like this
(I could have done something about it
last year, seriously...)
which would be realtively easy
if I'd made any effort at all,
It just shows how much of a fuck up
I've made of myself the last 12 months or so.

3:23

went to the library couple days ago.
reading a new book:


Here's a tip for
nightowls like myself,
staying up all night watching old vids
of my favorite bands on youtube;
and If you're havin' the munchies,
try at all costs
to avoid eating cereal with Ovaltine
or any other choco/malt drink substitute.
It makes your head spin, honestly.

new song to learn:
tell me when it's time to say I love you
by Green Day



I miss the days
when I'd listen to an album
days on end and memorise all the lyrics
back to back.
Music just isn't the same anymore.

old lung sign

So I've been holding back
on echoing the exact same sentiments
of friends and loved ones.
2009 basically sucked.
It was a whirlwind
of mishap after mishap
and it was a year of comings and goings
and being left behind and moving on;
It was a joyride that turned
into a trainwreck.
What the hell happened last year?
I can't understand why I went through all the trouble
of voluntarily fucking my life up.

Well, 2009 is over.
This is now.

I just wanna take some time and share a little
bit about the holidays,
to remember a few people who are dear to me.

My first night back in the Philippines,
our first stop, Tagaytay.
Beautiful place.

http://www.etravelpilipinas.com/tourism_news/images/Tagaytay-Country-Hotel.jpg

Anyways, a quick shoutout to my nieces,
Nicole, Chloe, their brother Tyrone and their
mom, my cousin Gladys...

It's hard to understand or find an explanation
as to how things just happen,
but as my family was getting ready for a reunion
of sorts, other loved ones had a close brush
with death as their apartment burned down in the wee hours
of the 27th, our 1st morning in Tagaytay.
Thank God no one was hurt except for some minor cuts and bruises,
but what was important is they all got out alive.

Certain issues and problems on both sides of my family
are still in the process of being resolved and I hope
slowly and surely they all will.
The holiday season was a bittersweet concoction of
emotions for me but I'm looking on the bright side
of things.

I haven't churned out anything creative lately,
I need to read more.

Hi to all the friends I didn't have time to greet
when I was back in the Philippines.

Gosh this post feels so fucking dry...
Here's a few pictures from Tagaytay and Cebu
with me, my cousins
and relatives:


Cousins Dara and her kid Reece (in Orange), Vim, Jared, Justin, Joel,
Netch(Marcel's GF), JM, Marcel and Nico.














More pics to come,
gonna get the ones from Dad's I-phone